Why am I feeling like this? This is just a huge vent so you can leave already I just need to tell this to something or someone to make my chest stop hurting.. It's pretty hard for me to live I don't know what condition this is or if it even is a condition. I don't even want to hear the word condition anymore it makes my head hurt like It never has before. It's hard for me to live my everyday life like I used to, and that's because I just can't bear the emotional pain of getting scolded or slightly told something negative about myself or what I'm doing. It gets hard to breathe sometimes and I start breathing rapidly and can't calm down. I don't think it's anxiety but It's pretty close.. people on the internet make it hard to keep my thoughts clear because I yell at myself in my head that I'm just faking it like others are on the internet and beat myself up, even more, when my heart starts hurting and it gets hard to breathe. It's also hard to feel any other emotions for long, like feeling happy, or thankful. I just end up thinking "There's a person out there more worthy of this than me, we should just switch places I know I deserve any hardships in life", I've told my mom recently and it went away for just a little under a week. I've told my mom 2 other times both of them only hurting me even more but this time she did a lot better.. this is just a vent there's no need to care or respond it's just here to be here. Byee!